There's Still a Long Way to Go

Being in Japan for nearly two months has taught me many things. Things like living on your own does not change your clumsiness, grocery shopping is difficult when you can't exactly tell what your buying, and knowing how to cook and wanting to cook are two totally different things.

But, recently, the biggest thing I've learned is that, in some ways I'm not a grown up at all. I'm not talking about the "kid" in me that makes it easy to relate to elementary school kids or the fact that I like that I get to watch One Piece and Detective Conan on TV. I mean the I don't have the experience that makes me a good "adult".

I chose this picture because it has Ace and Zoro in it and they were my favorite characters when I started watching. I moved to Japan to find out my favorite, Ace, just died ... SAD DAY! I don't know if I wanna catch up to where they are now ... on the plus side though Ace is more popular in Japan and "One Piece" is still huge here and I can actually find Ace goodies! It was difficult in America. If Zoro dies, I may give up on anime, my favorite characters have that habit.

I don't think I've spent my money all that wisely, I get nervous easily and there have been times when I should've spoken up but didn't when it came to taking control of situations. There are many things I've never had to handle on my own before and handling them for the first time while adding language barriers has made me realized I was sheltered and more unreliable then I had thought.

Despite knowing how to do things on my own, I've relied on my family for a lot of help all my life. If I was low on cash I knew I could count on them for gas money or go places with friends. When I was down or lonely I could call someone and change my mood. I've relied on others more than I'd like to admit.

I'm changing but there's a long way to go. I realize that I'm a bit naive and don't have the best self-control; even now I've relied on my parents to help by sending things, but I'm doing my best to do things myself and rely on God more than others.

I don't know where I'm headed yet as a person but I know that, right now, I'm heading in the right direction.

In other news, I was informed the quote I posted last time was not 100% MLK so I've taken out the line that was under debate. Still, I think a challenge to not even celebrate the death of an enemy is a good one.

That's all for now.

'Nuff Said,
Crysania